Are you a Dressage or Rodeo Rider? – Training the Unconscious

Why do some stories, poems, paintings or performances move us when others don’t? Where does a unique artistic voice come from? I believe it begins with a strong connection to the unconscious. The unconscious can be a dark and frightening place; home to fear, anxiety and aspects of ourselves we don’t like or try to suppress. But you also find love, yearning and creativity there. Which brings us rather unexpectedly to dressage.

Dujardin Charlotte, GBR, Valegro Olympic Games Rio 2016

Dujardin Charlotte, GBR, Valegro
Olympic Games Rio 2016

Think of the conscious mind as a dressage rider, rational, connected, concerned with the everyday; the conscious mind gets you to work and pays your taxes. The unconscious mind is the horse; big, unruly and wild, the place of dreams and desires. When the two work together in harmony the results can be spine-tingling.

What happens when we are in the zone?
Neuroscientist, Lewis Hou conducted tests using an MRI scanner on jazz musicians. He compared his differing results when the musicians were playing music from composed pieces, and when they improvised. During the improvised sections, the dorsolateral, prefontal cortex (situated near the temple) was temporarily disabled. This part of the brain is responsible for many cognitive tasks such as planning but also social inhibition. It develops very slowly during adolescence, which is why adults don’t throw screaming tantrums in the cereal aisle in Tesco’s. It’s only in later life when we introduce the rational, critical faculty that we start to distance ourselves from that free-thinking, uninhibited child. While we can happily kiss goodbye to the tantrums, we need to hang onto that creative, uninhibited urge which drives children to paint, draw and write without fear of failure.

Cutting off Teddy Bear’s head
When I was an art student at Goldsmiths University, in my late teens and early twenties, it was easy for me to access my unconscious. I was in a safe, structured environment in which eccentricity and creativity were actively encouraged. When I bought a giant teddy bear, cut off its and head and stuck a piece of mirror shard in its neck, I realised I had a lot of suppressed emotion (bucking bronco unconscious) to deal with. But this emotion was a HUGE source of creativity, resulting in 12 months of output and my final degree show (pictured above). Furred, anthropomorphic furniture displayed in a pastel mint-coloured room allowed visitors to step inside my subconscious world. Beyond the anger, I discovered joy and energy, family and friends left my show feeling uplifted and inspired. This early training in accessing the unconscious has stood me in good stead for all later creative projects. I have rarely suffered from writer’s block. I have had periods of not wanting to write, when there was too much upheaval in my life, but that’s a different story.


Keep the channel open
The characters in Robert Louis Stevenson’s Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde came to the author in a dream. Mr Hyde is the living embodiment of unconscious impulses which the decent Dr Jekyll could not possibly express. Kubla Khan, Jane Eyre, The Shining, The Twilight Series, Stuart Little and Frankenstein were all dream-inspired. Published stream of consciousness writing such as Joyce’s Ulysses or McBride’s, A Girl is a half-formed Thing, are not the only way to write from the unconscious. I believe there are other ways to ‘harness’ the unconscious during writing. Usually a good writing day for me, starts with recording my dreams. My dreams, like most people’s, are often nonsensical, so I rarely use the subject matter but recording them opens the channel between conscious and unconscious minds.
-----------------rodeobillSo are you on friendly terms with your unconscious and does it help you develop characters and plots? Or is it an unwieldy bucking bronco, best avoided in case it throws you off? Perhaps you have some tips to share for getting into the zone. Writing during the month of November for Nanowrimo/switching off your internet connection/retreating to the garden shed? I’d love to hear your ideas.

With thanks to author, Meg Rosoff – Artsnight Review



About susancarey

Angela writes using pseudonym, Susan Carey. She has dual nationality, GB/NL and lives in Nijmegen. Susan has had short fiction published on multiple platforms and was a runner-up in the 2018 and 2017 Casket of Fictional Delights Flash Competitions. Her writing has also been published and performed by amongst others: Mslexia, Liars’ League, Reflex Fiction, the Casket and of course the wonderful Writers Abroad. In 2020 she published her short story collection, Healer. Tweets at @su_carey
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6 Responses to Are you a Dressage or Rodeo Rider? – Training the Unconscious

  1. Sally Robinson says:

    Intrigueing blog, Angela. And lovely to view your art.
    Reckon my subconscious is something between a slow steady trot, with the occasional gallop!
    Yes, dreams are telling, aren’t they. I had one the other night when I was having this deep discussion in Totnes with two friends about whether we should meet up for tea at 3.45 or 4.00. Now what does that tell me about my subconscious??!!


    • susancarey says:

      Thanks for commenting, Sally. I’m not an authority on dream symbolism but for some reason it makes me think of the white rabbit being late for tea, or wherever he was going. I’m sure Alice in Wonderland could tell us a great deal about Lewis Carroll’s subconscious…


  2. thought provoking piece; its always a balance between wild creativity and sensible rational behaviour.


  3. nessafrance says:

    Very interesting post, Susan. There’s no doubt that, as we grow out of childhood, the unconscious mind and the creativity it produces get overlaid by education and social conventions as well as the physiological development you mention. Tapping back into it isn’t easy. Recording your dreams sounds like a good way of doing it. I know I have good days and bad days where creativity is concerned. The bad days are those when I have too many practical things on my mind. De-cluttering one’s life as far as one can, which I’ve been trying to do recently, may help.


    • susancarey says:

      Thanks, Vanessa for your considered and insightful comment! I find quiet time alone is pretty essential for accessing the creative mind. I’m taking steps in our small apartment so that I can at least shut a door when ‘I want to be alone.’ De-cluttering is also a very important step towards keeping those channels to the unconscious open. Let’s keep each other on track!

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